thanks to ahNEH darling & ahFAT fatty .
i'm so sorry i'm so extra ..
it doesnt distract me anyways..
but still tyvm ..

i just dnwan go out le ..
i feel so lonely at night..
watching movie remind me of him ..
the first meeting...
i dnwan see couple hugging , kissing ..
they just make me sad and moody..
i'm so sorry , i really dn feel like going out..
i just want someone to cheer me up..
it still hurt..
i scare i cnt go through this..
maybe it's not me who cnt..
it's my weak lung..
everytime i cry i cnt breath right..
it just hurt me seeing you guys so close.
i know it's bad of me..
i just wan be alone..
i need him .. but there's no turning back..
i couldnt stop myself from crying..
i tried to hold my tears ..
it doesnt work much ..
i'm sorry ..
i'm too sad to post anyt..
kill me..
i dnwan live in this hurting world..
i know he muz be angry & sad at me..
i couldnt feel sad about this ..
maybe i shouldnt have appear in his life ..
i'm just ... a girl .. a girl who hurt everyone in her life.
i wan a room for me to cry..
till i die .. i dnwan to live anymore..
why do he love me ?
he shouldnt have do so ..
this cause him ... to have a heart being broke by a cruel girl..
i hate th cruel girl .. and it's me myself..
maybe gans arent more impt ? or maybe it is..
just that ... love hurt more than friendship ..
maybe god shouldnt create this love thing..
i really miss him ...

i'll just go and cry myself alone..
alone in this crying room ..
trying to ignore those fcking darn thoughts..
bye people i'm just too moody..

i hate being so extra in a date.
please leave me out of this darling..
thankyouverymuchforthosekindness.
goodbye,i'lljusttryandsleepwithpeace.

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Dont blame yourself.
It's just part of emotional case :/
Just ignore this .
i scare i might go sick any of this emotional day..
i miss him too much , nobody can miss him so much..
when i say i love you , i meant it ..
you're the best guy i ever met..
i really miss you ..
*crying every moment writing this..*
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