I'm sick of all these.
I know you want get us back.
Do you know there will be much more huge test.
And those will be more painful.
I really don't want to risk.
I'm sick of life .
When i met you.
I thought you would not hurt me.
At least not in that way that numb my heart.
So i began steading you.
Sorry i really ..
Am miserable enough already.
Don't hurt more.
I've cried enough.
I cried everyday in my sleep.
I cried so hard that i can't breathe.
Do you understand how much you hurt me.
I'm a girl , a fricking girl.
You think i can withstand all these?
I really don't want to cry for boys anymore.
Even if i want ,  a silent cry will be good.
Twice .. twice hurt like never before.
Both long.. relationship.
7month , 9months.
Idk .. idk where to aim for now.
Study ? I don't have motivation.
But i don't really care.
I had enough heartbreaks.
I couldn't feel my heart anymore.
No more love , security , or even hate.
Haven't you done enough for me?
Forget everything.
Je suis tellement dans la douleur, ne fait plus de mal de moi.
J'en avais assez de ces.
S'il vous plaît .. s'arrêter .. 
Je ne veux pas plus mal.


I loved you.