I couldn't stop the numbness.
Why , why must it be me.
Why me , why not .. someone else.
What did i do wrong , what ?
I don't want to cry again.
I've crying for the rest of my life.
I just wanna be happy and laugh for a year.
At least i know i wasn't pretending.
At least i know i can fall in love.
At least.. I have someone to lean on.
I'm sick of the crying , even though i still cries.
Everything reminds me of you.
Why . Why you !
I wished i could heal.
They said time could heal everything.
Why doesn't my wound close up.
I just want to feel love again.
I'm pathetic , ain't i ?
I guess so too.
Nobody felt what i felt.

My brave front ?
It's gone , thanks to you.
You made me so weak.
Then you hurt me like nobody business.
After that , continue hurting me.
What can i do . Idk .
I want to hate you so much.
So much that i wish i wasn't alive.

I could use a wish right now..

{i wished for love and i got pain}