Heyy.
Yeah just posting because i bored.
These days i need more distractions .
Keep thinking of stupid thoughts , you'll never want to think of.
My heart is feeling sore now , because i given up on him.
Yeah idk why i given up on him , i'm not daring enough.
I'm tired of hoping that he will be there for me.
Tiring of waiting for him to say something to me.
Tired of getting disappointed because i know it's impossible.
He will never like me , i'm not girly.
I'm not good enough for him , everyone knows that.
I'm never .. his type i guess.
Yeah even my heart agrees with me.
You know that we know that i know that.
I've given up , i should just stay by his side.
And pretend nothing happen , because he never cared for me.
Not even once , i spam so much in fb because i want him to show his concern.
But yeah i'm not worth it for his care and concern.
I will never be worth it , he needs someone better.
It's not like we're best friends or something.
First time in my life , i didn't dare to confess.
How awesome right , i had no choices.
I feel like just die here now , but i have to live for others.
For the sakes of others , i don't want them to be sad for me.
Sorry for disappointing you my friend , i know you want me to try to be happy.
It's true , you shouldn't .. ever fall in love in such a young age.
Love is too hurting , too much for a girl of 13 years old 14 years old.
I've given up , all my hopes and dreams all crushed .
Boy i just wanna say i love you alot and i hope you feel the same.
But i know you won't feel the same , you wouldn't even care if i die or not.
I'm sure , that .. You will be happier if you are with someone else.
I don't know you well but you're a good guy.
Thanks for being so nice to me , thanks for being friends with me.
Our memories are the best , you've given me much laughters.
Given me so much motivation to live for so long .
Sorry to disappoint you , boy.
Sorry if i say as if i claimed you.
I thought i could have you , i thought i was attractive.
Attractive in a way that you would maybe like me.
But sorry to say i'm ugly , rude and everything bad.
I'm never good , never your type huh.
It's been long since we talked .
Even if it's online , i'm still happy , you made me happy.
I love you , this is the last time i am saying this.
I can't move on , i will just stay by your side.
Sorry for clinging , sorry for my nonsense.
You're the reason i am breathing now.
You're the reason i've been trying so hard for.
I wanted to impress you but seems like you doesnt even care.
I give up on myself , give up on my life , given up on trying.
I'm gonna just be "me" and let the real me dies.
It doesn't matter since i can't feel anymore.


If you wanted to be my only one.
If you wanted to see this happens.
You should have tried harder!
- But i have no more energy and motivation to try.