Hey.
I know it's been long since i post.
Not that i care , now i just need somewhere i can just complain.
Just complain and express my feelings and whatsoever.
Yeah i can't accept the fact that i'm so unattractive .
I felt disgusted by myself lately.
So disgusted i wonder why am i living.
Sorry i broke the promise i made.
Sorry to leave scars behind.
Looking at those scars, at least i feel glad.
I feel much better after doing that.
There's no other way any more.
Sorry for being emo and stuffs.
I know how pathetic i am , how disgusted you feel about me.
I no longer care , since you doesn't care.
I know how silly that is , from what people says.
But it's just.. I need someone/something to live for.
I no longer have one that i love to have.
It's all studies , parents , friends . Nothing else.
Nothing i love to have it as a reason to breathe.
How pathetic of me right ,  i know.
Sorry for loving you boy.
I've given you too much stress.
I just hope at least you give me an answer.
An answer so at least i can..
Give up totally or just ..idk..
It's the first time having me love someone so badly.
No i'm not attractive , no i'm not your type .
I'm just another random girl walking pass your life.
No scars no memories no nothing.
Sorry for being so .. obsessed.
I'll just try to change , for your sake.
For your happiness , and at least you won't have to worry that.
Your rejection would make me die.
Even if it does , it's not your fault.
It's God's will , let me die if i have to.
Happy finding your special one.
I'll always be supporting you.
Goodluck and goodbye.
I'll never be with you .. 
I love you though.

80reasons and counting on.