.. I'm really being numbed?
Why doesn't anything made me feel hurt.
Why doesn't i feel anything :|
I don't want to be like a dead person.
I want to feel. Please help me ..
I wanna cry if i want to..
If only people cherish them..
If i would have a chance to even have that ability back.

Sorry guys.
I know i'm influencing you.
I can't helped it , i just.. get moody easily.
I wish i die from my sickness :/
I wish i could cry like before maybe i wouldn't be so depressed.
I WISH I'M NOT ALIVE.

I woke up from sleeping.
I have no idea what is happening.
My eyes are red , i'm giddy and all.
The first thing i thought to myself : What did i do :/
It's surprising i woke up as it's been long since i could do that.
Lack of sleeping i guess ?
Guess that .. i care. I know i care.
Failure. Me.

Anyway..
Thanks guys , i really need that.
Thanks for asking if i'm okay.
Thanks for asking how's my sickness/illness.
I guess every girl always .. liked the wrong guys?
Or maybe it's just me ..
If only i was like what a friend says as.
A girl that doesn't show signs of PMSing.
But i did today didn't i ?
I fail. I'm a failure.
I wanted to hide my feelings.
Maybe everyone will feel better.
And because of something.
I just flunk it , i totally flunk it.
I showed attitude , i showed emoness.
Fck myself , i'm failure :/
I suck.

Fck off.
I wanna be sick again.
Maybe more people would care.
I wish they would , i needed that.

Thanks anyway.

Usually the person who seems the strongest , are the ones that needed a hug the most.