Why did we argue?
I'm sorry, i really am.
Maybe from now on i should really listen to you.
I will force myself to eat my meals, hold on to the tears when i feel disgusted with myself stuffing myself.

I'm afraid.
What if i have an illness and might be dying?
I rather not let myself know i have any even if i do.
I'm not feeling well, no i'm not..
How good can you feel when these happen to you?
Feel like throwing up often, loss of appetite, sometimes dizzy/light-headed.
Did i mention how much i hate to throw up?
I usually hold on to it until i can't hold on any longer.
I don't know how do i hold on this time, when they happens almost every hour.
I'm tired, depress, sad, lost.
I'm sick. It suck. Like hell.

I give up, i don't want to do anything to help myself.
Doctors will only scare me, hospital are the worse.
My family just thought it's funny to lose my appetite, "can diet ma" they say.
Yeah okay, diet as it is, then mum maybe i'll be the skinny girl you want me to be.
Thanks alot.