Hey guys long time no see.
It's been so long that i actually forgotten i have a blog. (And busy.)
Times now are extremely different from the past.
I couldn't find anytime for any friends or outing just because i want it.
There's just too many things to do, too little time and energy.
I don't know if i made the right choice, but i hope that i could change someone's life.
It's hard to "change" someone's life when they don't give a damn about you.



For a long time now, i've been alone, probably too afraid to love.
I'm starting to feel super lonely, especially when i am anti-social.
Can't blame me for not having the ability to socialize well with strangers.
I miss the times when there's always somebody, there for you.
I'm sorry for not treasuring you, and all of you.
Recently, i can't help but break down easily, just cry at the smallest things.
I no longer know what to do anymore, don't feel anything.
I wonder. Why can't i find somebody who loves me.
Maybe it's just me, or my personality.

I guess it's pretty sad and depressing, except that my results are great.
The only reason i am happy about my results, are probably maybe my parents could be proud of me.
But sorry mum, i failed you. I don't have much good morals that you have in mind.
I try, so hard, but i just can't control my emotions, my actions.
I'm sorry, for disappointing you.
I love you mum, i love you dad.





The only reason i cried after i received my Bio exam paper, was the thoughts of disappointing the most important people in my life. I'm sorry i can't do better than this. You always wanted me to do well, i need to do this right.








I love you so much.
Please don't be disappointed in me..