My life, right now, is utterly and painfully boring.
All i do right now is play game, play game, sleep, eat and play game.
What kind of rubbish life i am living right now :/
I really need a job right now, but it seems like it's not coming soon.

You know..
It's days like these during the holidays remind me of how lonely i am.
While everyone is out, having fun or working together with others.
I am always at home, rotting away.. Not doing anything productive.

Ever felt like you're alone in a house full of people you love?
This is how i feel currently, sitting in the room with moodswings.



Bloody hate this mood right now, I'm so angsty that i get angry easier.
So i have to avoid everyone in the house because if i don't..
I'll probably lose control and vent my anger on them.
Why the fudge i have to be this way, so insensitive and rude.
Sighs, i can't believe my behavior right now.

I wish i wasn't such a whiny teenager right now.
Freaking hate these moodswings right now.

Always feeling like life isn't worth living anymore.
Why am i having so many f***ing negative thoughts?
BLOODY HATE THESE THOUGHTS.


Yesterday night,
 I think it was probably the weirdest day of the entire year.
I really hope the feeling don't mean anything. 
It'll just become another regret like any other ones i had in the past.
Don't like the anxious feeling i felt due to the presence. 
Please don't ... please don't..
I don't wanna be weak again.