It's been such a long time since i last reflect on all these stuffs.

I recalled the times i enjoyed during GunZ few years back.
I missed all my GunZ friends that took care of me all the time.
I think they know who they are even though they might not be reading this.
I really want to turn the clock back to those moments,
because i took all of that for granted.
And in the end? I lost all of them.


I've been such a bitch to them, but they still cared for me.
I've been such a judgmental piece of shit, but they continued tolerating me.
I wish that i could return to those times and revive all of them.
I should have appreciated all those things i had.

But i didn't, i am such a disappointment.
I didn't appreciated my friends.
I am such a fucking failure.

I really deeply miss all my Zeus friends, Spear friends.
And those who cared and played with me in GunZ.
(and those who believed that i am a girl playing. Hahahaha!)


I am such a disappointment.
I lost my bestfriends, because of my awkwardness and situation.
I wish i have done more, to stop the drifting apart.
Now i feel completely left out from them.
Because of my idiocy..

I just want to say, i miss you all very much.
I wished i have made you all stay, but i guess i am too much of a failure to do that huh?
Hope you all are enjoying your life, and doing the best for yourself.