I should have known.

Expected too much, fell too deep and now I'm broken.

Thank you for all the amazing memories in the past few years.
I have to apologize for ending our friendship in the way that I did it.

I was a coward, I was afraid of losing you.
But I still lost you.

Maybe it's true that guys and girls can never be just close friends.
Or I made a mistake that I shouldn't have.
Relied too much on you and ended up expecting too much.

I mustered my courage to look for you when I was breaking down in public.
It was a mistake.

Don't know what I was doing.
I didn't know who to look for at that time.
I thought of you because... idk why?


Maybe it's true I am someone who made use of other ppl.
I experienced the same heartbreak as I did when I broke up with him.

The same thought of being less deserving engulfed me.
I wasn't able to face anyone for the past 5 days.

I cried so many times in public.
Silently.

Hoping nobody will notice.